"Be practical as well as generous in your ideals. Keep your eyes on the stars, but remember to keep your feet on the ground." ~ Theodore Roosevelt
Good morning; afternoon; afternoon; and evening friends and fans! Namaste. Happy New Year. There are several things I hope to change up in the New Year and work towards my own personal goals, one of them saving up so I can eventually leave the New York City area [indefinitely]. I already know or rather I have an idea on where I'd want to relocate to but want to give myself roughly five and a half years from now to have my necessary resources together such as having money in my bank account for things such as furniture; the necessary appliances for the kitchen and the basic items for around the home then I'll hook up my place afterwards to the point it'll be way cooler than other people's homes. 🤔 I want to have a creative input into my home but will often sage my home after each time I have people over, especially soirées (just sounds fancier than saying party). Hopefully by then I should have my driver's license because I want to have that freedom of being able to come and go whenever I please since public transportation isn't anything like here in New York City (I've heard buses run every hour or so in other states outside of New York City such as Virginia or even in Buffalo) once when I leave NYC. Another goal I would like to work towards is to pay off an existing debt in hopes by mid to late April, if not, by mid to late May and once when I've paid off any existing debt, I'll begin save up for a place of my own which will take time and effort (blood, sweat, tears, dedication, and perseverance). Once when my existing debt is paid off, I'll check out real estate somewhere in New Mexico to have a general idea whether if New Mexico is someplace that is in my budget if it exists and I have my reasons why I've picked New Mexico instead of Las Vegas, Nevada; I don't need for my mother to call my sister, Gwen and have her "check up" on me just to make sure I'm "staying out of trouble." That's the scenario I've pictured in my mind as a result of me moving out and by all means, if my mother feels she "needs" assistance with paying maintenance, then let her get in contact with the "friend" whom she stole from me (gee, what's that chick's name again that currently resides in Atlanta, GA?), Nargiss and see if Nargiss would come back to New York to help her pay half the maintenance or get her stepson, Michael to help her. Oh right, we haven't seen or heard from him and his wife, Iryna since Michael's father's (Mark) death January of 2020. It doesn't bother me much any that the pedophile is no longer with us but karma is a bitch and no love lost there, I didn't even cry at my stepfathers funeral but just acted sad whenever people gave their condolences (I couldn't careless about that pedophile for the most part but I need to heal).
In regards of fitness and nutrition, I want to get into doing more yoga as I've been doing a lot of as of late. I want to get into the vegan lifestyle because I want to get off Metformin and lead a healthier lifestyle. My goal is to (set aside from financial) get my weight down to 125 - 130 pounds and if it was in my budget, I'd hire a personal trainer. Who knows, I may open a fourth CD account for fitness purposes or possibility of liposuction and I realize it's very expensive in the thousands of dollars. Liposuction is my last resort. I hope to shop around for a blender so I can make smoothies from 10-Day Green Smoothie Cleanse by J.J Smith. I'm doing this for me and my health. As of late, I've been doing Rodney Yee's Yoga for Your Week and I love how I feel after I've done the A.M. Connection segment. This segment is generally roughly fifteen minutes long, however it's 8 minutes and twelve seconds long, that's YouTube for you! Other yoga DVD's I'll recommend are Element: Daily Yoga; Targeted Yoga; and Yoga for Belly, Butt & Thighs With Chrissy Carter. Of course, you're not going to hear of every yoga instructor which is fine but be opened minded. I do have another yoga DVD I have but never had the opportunity to check this DVD out, Element: Barre Conditioning and have to go to Best Buy for a new DVD player in the upcoming months when it's in my budget to buy a new DVD player.
"You don't have to feel guilty for cutting them off. It was the right thing to do. And believe me, if it were the other way around. They would have done the same thing too. Choose you, always you." ~ R.M Drake
Just being able to say no more often and not be afraid of the word no, even if it angers the individual. I am a people pleaser and I will yes people to death just to shut people up without actually meaning it. Plus, cut certain people out of my life permanently; even if it means going out of my way deleting your phone number off my contact list for good and I want to visually watch you delete my contact information along with all text messages (this includes all WhatsApp messages as well). I'm not dropping any names for this particular individual because I've already began the process of blocking this individual but will gradually delete all this person's messages. If you attempt of contacting me whatsoever, just know that all of your phone calls go to voicemail, just know that I've blocked you and it's for our own good!!! I've also had to block this other person, Joe, a guy whom I've met at Boost Mobile in August because this guy is purely incompetent and a laughing stock. This guy even threatened to send his homies and home girl to "jump" me and plus he's threatened to kidnap me! This guy is completely incompetent for someone who "claims" to have a high school diploma and a college degree. 🤣 This guy's writing skills is beyond atrocious and a lot (I mean a lot) of what this guy says makes zero sense when he writes. A two year-old can write better than this guy, Joe. From the times we've spoken over the phone, he sounds like he has a bunch of marbles in his mouth or either that he has a speech impediment making in difficult to understand what he's saying or he's just under the influence. Joe is not the most intelligent individual to even exist! Well, his mother should have had him aborted or swallowed him like they do in porn (just saying) and you can throw insults at him, he's just too incompetent to even know the difference between insults and compliments. I'm going to delete his number and block him as well. I have a high school diploma and only six semesters under my belt (three from TCI and three from LaGuardia Community College), I write properly all without a college degree! 🤣 There's another person whom I'd like to delete their phone number and all text messages (as well on WhatsApp) and block this individual from ever calling because I'm tired of this particular individual(s) constantly resorting to name calling causing me have flashbacks of my stepfather resorting to name calling (to both myself and my son) than turn around saying to look at the text messages but I will leave it at that with no questions asked. I'm tired of that childish behavior but I'm slowly getting to to my breaking point, that's it and good luck trying to convince me to remain in your life. I need to speak up and not stay shut for anyone, regardless of who you are (male or female) because I've had people take advantage of me in the past and I need to shut that down. Perhaps I'll have that satisfaction of shutting people down by not staying quiet. It's getting old of where I stay shut and allowing people to take advantage and walk all over me like a rug. That lifestyle is getting old and I've been told by many that I need to speak up. If you don't like it, if I had a dick, you can suck my dick and tell me what flavor. I'm at that point in my life that I've had enough of people's nonsense and one of these days I'm going to end up telling my own mother off because it's getting ridiculous with her behavior. I'm tired (mentally and emotionally) of dealing with her shit. Enough is enough and the day I move out, I want nothing to do with my own mother because she's a toxic person who chose her pedophile husband over me after I told her what happened and I'll never ever forgive her for that. Why should I forgive my own mother? For what? I'm not getting anything out of it. Yes, it hurts like hell but I'm constantly in that survival mode, 24/7/365 at all times. All in all, I wish you all the best, cheers mate! 🥂
Overall, I want to primarily focus on saving up so I can eventually leave New York City for a change of scenery because I'm doing this because I want to (by choice) and I'm doing this for me. If anyone have any problems with that, speak now or forever hold your tongue and I'll keep in touch with nine people and mostly family. Three people I'll no longer be on speaking terms with, this guy Joe; this other individual with narcissistic issues; and even my own mother but it would be great if she relocated to Las Vegas, Nevada and spend the rest of her life living with my sister and brother-in-law. If need be, I may as well just change my phone number so it would be impossible for my mother and this other individual to get my new contact information. Don't believe for a single moment that I'm playing anyone dirty because you want to believe whatever lies you're being fed at the moment and keep in mind that I am not playing anyone dirty and trust me, once when I cut you out of my life, there is absolutely no turning back but it was nice knowing you! There are so much I want to accomplish in the upcoming year and my first two goals is to improve my health by doing yoga on my days off from work and the second is to pay off any and all existing debt I have before I set up additional small personal goals for myself. I would love to go on many photography walks but have to find the time when I'm able to go on photography walks and a photography blog will be in the works. For now, small goals, baby steps before I mess myself up along the way and it's important for me to remain on track and focus on relaxing more. I do enjoy being outdoors more than being stuck indoors all day and if I had my own place, I'd have music playing all the time but will have one television set throughout the home so I can focus on my yoga.
"As important as it is to learn how to deal with different kinds of people, truly toxic people will never be worth your time and energy - and they take a lot of each. Toxic people create unnecessary complexity, strife, and, worst of all, stress." ~ Travis Bradberry
- Focus all my attention and energy more on my own health before anyone and anything else. Such as eating healthier and continue on my yoga/fitness journey. My health comes first before any man, woman and child. Nonetheless, I don't give two shits about you, even though I do care but my health comes first. If I'm not in the best of health, than how can you expect me to spend time with you or go to work on the days I'm scheduled to work? 🤨
- Pay off any and all existing debt.
- Save up for a place of my own and set both short term and long term goals.
- Saying no more often and not be afraid of the word no.
- Cutting certain individuals out of my life for the sake of my own sanity so I can finally find my happy, whether if you're apart of my life or not but don't be a narcissistic asshole that you are (I'm not naming any names but I'll let you figure it out on your own). Even if it means deleting and blocking your contact info just to prevent you ever from contacting me ever [going forward].
- Go on more photography walks when time permits.
- Write more blogs, even if this means going to any Queens Public Library (Fresh Meadows or Windsor Park) or Starbucks down the block from where I live.
- Looking into schools such as Grace Institute, providing if they have lifted the vaccine mandate by the time I get around to checking out any upcoming open house event they have. If they've lifted the vaccine mandate, I'll take advantage of it while I still can! However, if the vaccine mandate is still in effect, I hope and pray that I get to use my religious exemption. Nonetheless, I'm open to taking the COVID weekly testing
Blessed be,
Jennifer
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