Wednesday, July 24, 2024

My Postal Ligation Surgery Story

"The absence of doll babies in my toy chest didn't serious influence my later decision not to become a mother; rather, I disdained Hasbro's Baby Alive wetting doll because I was already the kind of girl who would grow up to be childless by choice." ~ Lionel Shriver

Good morning; afternoon; and evening friends and fans! Namaste. It's been a month since I've had my tubal ligation done and I have absolutely no regrets in getting my tubes tied. I have my personal reasons as to why I got my tubes tied and it feels right to me. I will be completely honest with you; I've never had that maternal desire for motherhood, and I regret not getting my tubes tied ages ago. Had I gotten my tubes tied a long time ago, I would have had more time to focus on my studies, get my career going, pay off any existing debt, and travel the world, guilt free of course. Where I'm at in life as we speak, I'm not ready to settle down because I want to have my own adventures before I feel ready to settle down and I feel very tempted in getting married just to get the fuck away from my mother! [Anything is better than having to continue living under the same roof as my mother. I honestly cannot stand my own mother, if you've witness how she is with me, you'd see through her bullshit!] I'm looking to stay out of jail for as long as I can and I'm willing to couch surf. I'm getting off track by talking about my mother and I do want to change my own situation for the positive so I wouldn't end up in jail for something I shouldn't have done if you catch my drift. When I have my finances together (sooner than later), I'll take a trip to Original Botanica for some candles to use either for my mother or myself and I'll most likely use the candles for myself. Anyway, a month into having my tubal ligation done, I have zero regrets and I'm very happy that I've gotten my tubes tied. As mentioned before, I regret not getting my tubes tied because I've never wanted children and had I gotten my tubes tied, I wouldn't be where I'm at as we speak if I'd gotten my tubes tied.

"I'm a childless woman, yet I felt no maternal urges whatsoever. The prospect of years of broken nights and nappy changes holds no appeal for me." ~ Kiki Dee

When I had gotten my tubes tied a month ago, I honestly didn't feel any pain or discomfort post procedure. Truth be told, there'd been moments when I've expressed interest in wanting to get my tubes tied and my gynecologist would say I'm "too young to have" my tubes tied. Nope, I know my situation; I know where I'm at in life and by the time I am ready to settle down, I will most likely be in my 50s or 60s [whenever]. I have a 5mm incision, well three 5mm incisions and hope the scars will be less and less noticeable as time goes on. Before the procedure, they give you these wipes to "clean" yourself the day before and the day of your appointment. With each wipe, first wipe is for one arm; second wipe your other arm; third wipe is for your torso; fourth is for one leg; fifth is for the other leg; and the sixth is for your back. The nurse will give you a form to sign and bring in the next day. You'll be informed not to eat or drink anything from midnight until after your procedure. On the day of my procedure, I brought in the forms, the receptionist didn't ask for the forms the morning of the procedure. Don't ask why. After my procedure, it felt like I'd done a bunch of sit-ups and that's how it felt. Other than that, I've had a positive experience. A day or two later, I ended up breaking out from whatever they used to clean me up with. My torso and upper thighs areas that were affected by whatever they used on me to clean me. A week later I went to have it checked it out cuz I'm thinking to myself the first several days (same week of procedure before going a week later), I'm like "Is this normal to be itchy?" From what I understand is that it must have been whatever they've used. When I had my official post op appointment, I've mentioned it to the doctor who did the operation was saying I have sensitive skin because I was pretty nervous as to why I was feeling itchy. That would explain a lot. As of late, the itchiness is slowly going away, and I'd have to invest in some moisturizers for areas where the doctor had cleaned me up. When I woke up, my throat was a bit sore since there was as a tube down my throat and felt bloated for several days but it'll go away with time. It's not going to last forever.

"I'm completely happy not having children. I mean, everybody does not have to live in the same way. And as somebody said, "Everybody with a womb doesn't have to have a child any more than everybody with vocal cords has to be an opera singer." ~ Gloria Steinem

Menstrual cycle wise, I haven't had my menstrual cycle since mid-April, and long story short, I had my Depo-Provera shot in February (it's a birth control shot good for every three months). I had a near month long menstrual cycle from late March into mid-April and this was not a pleasant experience. In May, I was going to speak to my gynecologist regarding getting my tubes tied and she was the one to mention tubal ligation (I was shocked). I honestly don't know why I was given the Depo-Provera shot a month before my tubal ligation surgery, and it makes no sense to be given the Depo-Provera shot! Since the surgery, I've been spotting since having my tubes tied and I'm assuming it's normal to spot post-surgery. When I do get my menstrual cycle, I hope my periods aren't as bad as it sounds with cramps. I've had a history of irregular menstrual cycles and so far, I'm enjoying not experiencing my monthly visitor. Who knows if the reason why I'm currently not having my menstrual cycle is most likely due to the Depo shot I had in May or I may be in the very early stages of menopause. I had asked my gynecologist regarding menopause, she was saying most women experience menopause roughly around 51 years of age, often time younger than 51 and I'm only 41! Before I forget to mention, I had mentioned to my mom in regards of getting my tubes tied a month ago, she thought it was a good idea and she made a fucked up snarky comment about me sleeping around! [Dude, what in the actual fuck?] You know what, at least I'm able to get more dick instead of making snarky comments. It's like seriously? Shut the fuck up for once in her life and I don't need her obnoxious snarky commentary nonsense. She needs one of two things, she either needs to get laid or her second option is to invest in smoking marijuana and she's not going to die from an overdose (no matter how hard she attempts of overdosing on marijuana). This is why I don't want to be at home because of my mother's fucking obnoxious behavior.


Blessed be,

Jennifer

Saturday, March 2, 2024

March is Developmental Disabilities Month

"Recognizing and respecting difference in others and treating everyone like you want them to treat you, will help make our world a better place for everyone. Care... be your best. You don't have to be handicapped to be different. Everyone is different!" ~ Kim Peek

Good morning; afternoon; and evening friends and fans! Namasté. 🧘🏾‍♀️ As many of you may or may not be aware of, March is Developmental Disabilities Month, and I may write a little something in October as well since Americans observe National Disability Employment Awareness Month. In this particular blog, we'll focus more on resources on services, however, I'm not sure what services are currently available in other states outside of New York City and I'll include places where people with disabilities can receive evaluations. I hope these resources help those who don't know where to go or have a social worker to help them along the way in life and it's going to be a journey in applying for programs such as OPWDD (Office for People with Developmental Disabilities). Here is a video on what OPWDD has to offer what services they have to offer: OPWDD Services and best of luck on your journey. If you're a New York City resident, and looking to be a part of OPWDD, I believe you'll need a current evaluation from Queens Center for Progress, an I.E.P (Individualized Education Program) from high school just in case but I highly doubt they'll need it (don't quote me on it but do your research anyway to keep yourself covered). It's a process, and best to stay on top of things so things will go smoothly. If you reside in another state such as Florida, and feel free to research what's available in a city near you! You have until you are 21 to pass all of your RCT's (Regents Competency Tests) and not many people are aware of this knowledge but it's good to know anyway.

"Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion. Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing." ~ Muhammad Ali

It's not easy living life with a disability, especially an intellectual disability and speech impediment but it does not mean I'm incompetent or that you have the legal right to treat me any less different than anyone else, especially if I've never done anything to you. As the saying goes, treat others the way you want to be treated because at some point in your own life you'll get your own karma coming your way sooner or later. For people such as myself, life is not living life with an intellectual disability such as a learning disability and a speech impediment. I have a hard time pronouncing peninsula and vanilla. I've had people say they "haven't noticed a speech impediment" whenever I text them, however, I'm not sure if they're being polite by saying they haven't (allegedly) noticed a speech impediment as to not to hurt my feelings and causing me to feel even more self-conscious when I speak and I don't need to feel any more self-conscious than I already am when I speak. It can be quite frustrating at times but it's not easy either and who says it has to be easy? As mentioned before, it's not easy living life with an intellectual disability and speech impediment. It takes me longer to learn something new and all I ask for is for patience when dealing with me! I'm just as human as anyone else and no, I'm not trying to gain sympathy from people just because of my disabilities and I'm simply saying it hasn't always been easy but at times this can be frustrating at times.

"When it comes to diversity and with disabilities, we always need to find a way to express who we are in our own ways." ~ Jamie Brewer, actress

If you're seeking employment opportunities, there's Adult Career and Continuing Education Services - Vocational Rehabilitation (ACCES - VR) and General Human Outreach, I'm not sure what other supportive employment programs are currently available outside of and within OPWDD because I am in the process of getting my son, Stephan into the OPWDD program and I'm hoping to receive services through GHO for Family Support Services. My son is on the (autistic) spectrum but is functional, meaning he is able to do the basic things such as brushing his teeth, taking care of his bathroom needs (taking bathroom breaks and freshening up, meaning taking showers), feeding himself, communicating (he's verbal), etc. Other than that, I'm not sure what other supportive employment programs are available, and I hope to find more information through my son's case manager through Tri-County Care or through a social worker or possibility through his teachers at his high school. Once when I have more information, I will be sure to pass that information onto you once when they become available!

"The most interesting people you'll find are the ones that don't fit into your average cardboard box. They'll make what they need, they'll make their own boxes." ~ Dr. Temple Grandin, professor with autism

Last but not least, there's CIDNY and OPWDD Housing Option and Resources at your earliest convenience. The video is informative in my opinion, and I hope you find the video to be useful yet helpful. Since life here in New York City is expensive as it is, especially if you wish to have a place to call your own and the rent is scary expensive as it is, especially if you wish to have a place to call your own and my personal goal is to eventually have a place to call my own. However, my budget currently does not allow me to live on my own because I do not earn enough to live on my own and I'm certain there are resources for low-income families. Anything is better than having to live with my mother! When I have additional information on affordable housing, I will be sure to include that information on here so you'd be up to date and have this type of knowledge for yourselves.

Blessed be,

Jennifer



Wednesday, February 14, 2024

Winter Skincare Routines for Every Age

 "All the makeup in the world won't make a difference without great skincare." ~ Khloe Kardashian

Good morning; afternoon; and evening friends and fans! Namasté. 🧘🏽‍♀️ As I'm sitting here at Starbucks on Valentine's Day around my way with a Venti sized Peppermint White Chocolate Mocha Frappuccino Blended Beverage with Vanilla Sweet Cream (may I add) and I'm pretty sure I'm giving that Carrie Bradshaw vibe so far. Since this is Valentine's Day, I treated myself to a Siren Logo Plastic Hot Cup - 16 fl oz since I want to be all fancy and will eventually treat myself to a gel manicure around Mother's Day weekend. Heck, this is way better than being home and for now I'm going to focus on writing this blog before heading home and this may be a three-part self-care over the course of three future blogs within the next three years, no rush. This blog is going to be interesting to write since there's going to be so much to research, but this blog is solely based on personal experiences. I have no particular skincare routine where it's very simple and direct or rather straightforward, whichever term you wish to use on your own accord at this point. In a future blog, I may do a self-care date idea for couples since I've recently entered, officially twenty-five days ago and I do want to give it time to bloom before I take notes and observe what works best for us. Keep in mind, with any skincare products I mention may or may not be best appropriate for many and my best advice is to give it a try for at least a full ninety days. I will advise to write about your three-month skincare routine of what works best for you, and you can give three different skincare routine over the course of nine months, three full months per cleanse products. Once when you find your new skincare product, heck, go for it and what have you got to lose? This may be a follow up to 'What Beauty Secrets?' and I honestly was going to redo that blog over but I'm glad I hadn't done so at this point! I have several secrets as to not looking a day over 25 is drink enough water; limit your alcohol intake to socially and same goes with drugs (cocaine, heroin, etc); ladies, limit how much you use makeup; of course, watch your diet and if you have the time and energy, exercise. Keep in mind I am in my early 40s and I don't look a day over 25! At the end of the day, it's all in how you take care of yourself and make yourself a first priority. If you're not in the best of health, how can you take care of your family and how can you make the bills in time if you aren't in the best of health? Your best bet is to check out this video: ULTIMATE Skincare Routine for GLASS Skin and I don't wash my face twice a day. I wash my face once a day before bed time! I'm just saying and do what's best for you. My best advice is to speak with a dermatologist on which cleanser is best for you.

-Clean & Clear-

"I like my skin best when it's clean and glowy, and that comes from sleep, hydration, and happiness." ~ Tracee Ellis Ross

Let's begin with Clean & Clear Relaxing Deep Cleaning Face Wash, 8 Fluid ounce. At some point I've used this product, and I don't have much negative experience. I do use it before going to bed and especially after coming home from work, a date or a night out with friends. Mostly when you've arrived home from wherever (work, date, wherever) and your face will thank you for it. Try it for three months before moving onto your next skincare product. I liked how it made my face feel, however, it's been a mission searching for Clean & Clear in regular retail stores such as CVS, Rite Aid, Target, Walgreens. Seems like the only places I can get Clean & Clear is from Amazon and on a good day, I'll find it at any of these stores. If not, I'll order it from Amazon when time permits in doing so, budget wise for when I can but no rush at the moment. Once when it's in my budget, I'll order some Clean & Clear from Amazon and will redo this portion of the blog. You can also look around at various different Stop & Shop grocery stores for Clean & Clear facial products. It's always good to pamper yourself at the end of the day.

-Noxzema-

"I am most particular about moving all my makeup and keeping my skin clean before I go to bed. No matter how tired I am or how hectic my day has been, I always make it a point to take it off." ~ Deepika Padukone

I often use Noxzema, it's been a hot minute since I've gotten to use Noxzema for a good half hour to forty-five minutes. When I have a zit or two or any unsightly blemishes on my face, I take a dab of Noxzema and place the dab on each of the blemishes and leave it on overnight. Normally, by morning, it's gone and often times I still have the blemishes on my face. It takes several days for it to go away and I figured I'd add Noxzema to this list of self-care products I normally use. However, I use Noxzema when I shave my legs, down there, and armpits. A majority of the time when I've finished shaving my legs, I use Johnson's baby oil or Well Beginnings Baby Oil afterwards, well, mostly when I come out of the shower. I buy whichever baby oil is on sale, such as buy one and second is free, that type of deal and especially when you're on a budget!!! Not to sound frugal or anything of that nature. I don't always use baby oil on my legs or unless it's summer time and have plans to go to Fort Totten Pool or the beach. I have zero complaints on using Noxzema and haven't had any issues in using Noxzema.

-Differin-

"I try to do simple but effective things to keep my skin looking healthy and flawless. I drink tons and tons of water. Also, I believe in eating right. You are what you eat." ~ Anushka Sharma

Next up is Differin Cleanse Daily Oil-Free Hydrating Cleanser and Differin Gel Adapalene Gel 0.1%. I personally like how it makes my face feel at the end of the day. I often use Differin Restorative Night Moisturizer when needed and I need to moisturize more often just to upkeep my youthfulness. There's more to skincare routine and good genetics, it's all in how you take care of yourself. It's simple small beauty hacks. Whenever I have blemishes on my face, it drives me up the wall, and it drives me crazy! Since I have Differin Adapalene Gel, I use it before bed and it helps with time, don't expect immediate result. Be consistent when using Differin each night since this particular product is a bit on the expensive side, use it sparingly in order for it to last longer. When using the Differin Adapalene Gel, follow it up with the moisturizer, and it's up to you if you want to rinse it off or leave it on. I personally leave it on, and I don't bother rinsing it off in the end. Of course, the moisturizer leaves my face feeling soft and I love it! Result may vary per person. If you have any issues with acne, speak with a dermatologist regarding which skincare product you should try.

-Sephora-

"Looking good is about having a good base. It's about taking care of your skin." ~ Halle Berry

Once when I've finished using Differin Cleanse Daily Oil-Free Hydrating Cleanser and Differin Restorative Night Moisturizer, I intend on going to Sephora and try their vegan facial products. Yet, I'm pretty sure these items are overpriced and in due time, I'll give it a try when time permits, especially when it's in my budget to shop at Sephora for their vegan facial products. If you have any suggestions in regards of which facial cleanser I should try next, feel free to drop a comment and a like below. I'm open to trying something different and as long as it doesn't break the bank just to look good. I've found a list of vegan skincare cleanser for those who are vegan, and it does not have to be limited to Sephora but it's a suggestion from me to you on this Valentine's Day! I'm totally open to trying different facial cleansers and seeing how my experience is once when I find the right facial cleansers as long it's not "tested on animals" than I should be alright.

-In Conclusion-

In conclusion to this blog, it's a little Valentine's Day self-care tip from me to you. As stated previously, this may or may not be my only self-care blog for those curious enough to know what my skincare routine is and if you're curious enough to try any of my skincare routine, it's fine by me. Not everyone is going to have the time or the energy to be as committed to their skincare routine whether if you're a busy parent or just overall busy with everyday life. It's important to make time for yourself but I'm not going to convince you and it's entirely up to you. As long as you're able to find time to spend time alone, away from people and even it means treating yourself to a nail salon or out to dinner, but it does not have to be fancy nor expensive. If it's in your budget, go for it and don't be afraid to treat yourself well! If you want to have nice youthful skin, drink lots of water; be mindful of your diet; and exercise on the daily. If your time is limited, do what you have to do and even if this means waking up two hours earlier than usual in the morning to squeeze in some exercise, whether if it's cardio or yoga or whatever tickles your fancy at the moment. Make sure you get a good night's rest which also helps and always be sure to laugh throughout your day, even if you're having a bad day. Happy self-care and don't forget to take care of yourself!

Blessed be,

Jennifer





Sunday, December 31, 2023

Toast To the New Year

"New year - a new chapter, new verse, or the same old story? Ultimately we write it. The choice is ours." ~ Alex Morritt

Good morning; afternoon; and evening friends and fans! Namaste. Wow, this year is already come and now we're entering a new year. I do want to keep my New Year's Resolutions [refer to Let's Make The New Year Magical blog] but keep it for the upcoming year and will continue to focus on my health and working on being happy, even if it means being single. Yet, I really need to be less critical of myself in a negative way and learn to love myself first so I can positively radiate light from the inside out, every angle possible. Go on dates, regardless of what my mother says and no, I haven't sat down in conversation with her asking her what her thoughts would be in regards of me having a genuine love life because I feel I deserve it. What is my mother going to do to me? What, is she going to call the police on me just because I feel that I deserve a love life? Don't expect me to bring any guy home because what the chances of my mother stealing my future boyfriend just because she doesn't want to get up off her lazy ass and find her own boyfriend and go on dates that are age appropriate? Not the point, I'd have to stop punishing the next guy just because of my son's father put me through and don't get me wrong, I was 26 years old when I got pregnant out of rape, and I was going to put my son up for adoption because I felt I wasn't ready for motherhood since I had other plans I wanted to accomplish before settling down, getting married with a slight possibility of motherhood (depending on where I was at in life at the time), baby daddy's excuse on why he wasn't around was because I wanted to put my son up for adoption! I do want to go on dates, finally be happy for as long as possible with the person I'm with because I deserve it.

"Celebrate endings - for they precede new beginnings." ~ Jonathan Lockwood Huie

I'm going to continue with my fitness journey for as long as possible. Once when I've paid down my three charge cards, which should be by the end of January and once when I've got my finances in order, I'm going to focus on saving up to get my root canal done and have a crown, so I join Planet Fitness in the upcoming months once when I've taken care of the dental work that needs to be done. I already have days I want to go (Tuesday afternoon after work; Wednesday; Thursday afternoon after work; and Friday) since there are Free Fitness Training, for those interested in a Day pass at Planet Fitness, check out the link provided, and I'll do what I can to include Mondays at home once when I fire up my laptop for a full body workout, but it's not guaranteed since my mother is retired since August of 2019. 😒 [She doesn't have much of an active social life since most of her friends had relocated to other states outside of New York City, her day consists of either going to the store to get what she needs in the morning or when she has a doctor's appointment but other than that, when she doesn't need anything from the store, she stays home and watches television all day. I have made suggestions to her in regards of programs currently available at the Queens Public Library and as well as making suggestions of her going to Alley Pond Park for walks when Mother Nature is good to us, the impression I've gotten from her is a lack of interest and motivation. Even if she does go for walks, maybe, just maybe she'll find herself a love interest or age-appropriate friends in her own age group. However, I don't know what her problem is, perhaps she believes she's too good to keep herself occupied but she allegedly claims she's "afraid" she'll "fall off the bus" and I call bullshit]. Once when I've paid off my three charge cards and have the funds for a root canal and crown, I'll go for a gym membership in Fresh Meadows since it's not far from where I currently live. I'm going to continue with yoga for my own mental health so I'm not feeling overwhelmed when there is no need to feel that way. I need to do better in regards of health and happiness. I have this mentality and the need to make others happy first before I even make myself happy. I have that survival mentality that I've had for so long that I don't know how to let go of that survival mentality. Again, I should incorporate other workouts such as VICTORIA'S SECRET FULL BODY WORKOUT | 20 MINUTES on the mat. I also want to add WEEK 1 - 2024 WINTER WORKOUT CHALLENGE and among other fitness challenges from this particular YouTube channel. When I get to 150 pounds (halfway point), I want to get a lotus tattoo on my left wrist with Just Breathe or Breathe tatted underneath of a lotus tattoo. There is a spiritual reason why I've chosen a lotus tattoo, but I don't feel it's appropriate for this blog, well, look at the world we currently live in, we live in a world of ugly and there's always that one beautiful soul that outshines that others don't have or lack that "shine" and resilience that some people have. That's my reason why I want to get a tattoo of a lotus. My goal is when I get to my goal weight of 125 pounds, my intention is to buy at least two or three outfits from Trash & Vaudeville and here's an article in regards of Trash & Vaudeville: Jimmy Webb, Trash and Vaudeville's Beloved Punk, Dies at 62. I intend on doing a better job in taking care of myself through dieting; exercise; and getting enough rest when needed so I can remain healthy and happy. If I don't take care of myself now, how can I take care of my fourteen-year-old son if I am not in the best of health? Furthermore, I do feel it's imperative to take care of yourself first before you take on additional responsibilities of caring for others (I don't give a fuck how old you are)!

"I hope that in this new year to come, you make mistakes. Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're doing something." ~ Neil Gaiman

To end this blog, I want to do more, little by little and I want to split my time between work; home; and motherhood so I can do age-appropriate things with people in my own age group. There are moments I feel overwhelmed, and I don't know how to communicate I feel in a vocal kind of way. Communication is something I need to work on so I can say how I feel and mean it. Yet, it's so much easier for me to write about it on paper than it is for me to speak about it on paper than it is for me to speak about what I'm feeling, and I'll keep those feelings to myself until I write in my regular handwritten journal. I don't expect people to understand but it's all good. There are things I truly want to focus on, such as focusing more on my health; love life or rather have a love interest but something along those lines as well as having an active social life with age-appropriate people; focus more on myself so I don't lose myself in the process; as well as focusing on saving for a place to call my own and even if this means working two or three jobs just to save up for a place to call my own. Even saving up for a school bus, renovate the school bus so I can travel and go cross country, I'm sure by the time I'm financially established enough to buy a school bus, it should roughly be around when my son graduates from high school. I'm not going to go too crazy in listing many articles and/or videos from YouTube land. Here you go to view at your own leisure: Skoolie Life What to Consider Before Living in A School BusSkoolie vs RVI'll be Surprised If You're Not Impressed with This Charter Bus Conversion; and College Student's Bus Conversion Is Nicer than most Apartments. I feel living off grid can benefit me on many levels, especially in an economical way. Who knows how long I'll be living on a school bus; it could be short term (roughly up to four to five years) or long term (indefinitely). I like the idea of living on a school bus is the idea of not having to owe rent to landlord each month. There are other things I want to work on, one of them is time management. I still need to speak up but in more of a diplomatic way without having to explain myself at all whatsoever when it should be self-explanatory for those with common sense and logic.

Blessed be,

Jennifer



Wednesday, December 13, 2023

16 Reasons You Should be Talking About Fitness Challenge

"If we could give every individual the right amount of nourishment and exercise, not too little and not too much, we would have found the safest way to health." ~ Hipporates

Good morning; afternoon; and evening friends and fans! Namaste. I've been working out for the last eleven months since I'm looking to lose weight and I'm at that point that I'm becoming discouraged since I feel like I haven't seen anything different. If need be, I'm looking to join Planet Fitness but my indentions are there as to why I want to work out and I'd say the same for Tiger Schulmann's Martial Arts. I have my reasons why I want to take up martial arts and I feel like I'm getting more for the buck so to speak. Another thing is if I were to take up martial arts but I'm not sure it's not all that necessary to do yoga as well and I figured it'll be the best health investment I can make one can make for themselves. For those who are on a budget and live in the New York City area, there is a Shape Up NYC, a lot of these programs are free to try, especially for the curious. This blog took me a while to write because I wanted to make sure I have what I wanted to say sound interesting and also make mention of what videos worked for me before feeling like I want to take it to the next step up, such as joining a Planet Fitness or a Tiger Schulmann's Martial Arts or Renzo Gracie Academy since I have a curiosity towards Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu and Muay Thai. My main goal is to make sure my bank account is plentiful should something arise, such as unemployment or whatever the situation may come up. My goal is to go at my own pace, so I'm not so easily discouraged and purely frustrated. Of course, there'll be days where I'll become very discouraged and frustrated, disappointed but I'm determined to get my personal goal because I'm doing this for me, myself, and I since this feels natural. What I mean I want my fitness journey to feel as natural as possible is that this feeling should come from within and nothing else. I have my reasons on why I work out is because I am doing for me; I want to feel good about myself. I'm doing this for me, myself; and I; I want to stop the negative cycle of body image issues and passivity embrace my body so I can be a better version of myself before I become a better version to other people.

-Weight Loss Journey-

"Exercise to stimulate, not to annihilate. The world wasn't formed in a day, and neither were we. Set small goals and build upon them." ~ Lee Haney

As most of you already know, I've been focused on getting in shape and for the first time in over five plus years my weight has gone from 201.4 pounds down to 196.6 pounds since January of this year! I'm currently taking Jardiance for my diabetes and when I'm at my goal weight of 125 pounds, I no longer plan on taking Jardiance since there are side effects involved. However, let's see where life takes me in the upcoming months. As much walking I have done this past year, I'm surprised and a bit disappointed I haven't lost more! I don't eat a whole lot of sweets or carbs; I eat enough carbs, but I don't overdo it and I just eat a small portion of carbs. Very rare I crave sweets but when I do consume sweets, I eat sweets in a mindful way. Talk of dieting should be for a separate blog and this is more of a fitness bog than anything. I've found several fitness videos that made me feel sore for several days which is what I'm looking for as a result and I enjoy feeling sore when working out. I'm doing this for me, no one else and I want to feel good. Reasons why I work out is because of sleep (I have mild sleep apnea), I want to improve my self-esteem; reduce risk of surgery (if need be), I hope to increase my metabolic rate; increase my metabolic rate, increase my range of motion, increase functional strength; I'm looking to improve balance and coordination, I've taken notice that exercise helps with my depression, I want to control my weight and since I'm in my early 40's, it's a challenge to drop my pregnancy weight and keep it off, another goal is to reduce aches and pains, lose hidden body fat; I want to improve my energy level and for longer; I'm also looking to strengthen my back and core muscles so I'm not preventing any discomfort of back pain; I want to change my body shape; I want to feel good about myself in my own skin, a.k.a. feeling confident in my own skin; Boost my flexibility through yoga/stretching; and I want to live as long as I can because I want to accomplish more in life. I still have places in the world I so want to visit but let's start with Japan first! If you wish to keep track of your fitness journey, here is a Six-Month Body Measurement Tracking Chart you can print out for your own records! I recently purchased Booty Bands for Working Out, Fabric Resistance Bands for Working Out Women Thigh Bands for Workout Bands Resistance for Women Resistance Bands for Leg Bands for Working Out Woman Glute Bands for Women from Amazon and I love it! I have another resistance band but for upper body fitness routine. My main weight loss goal is to get my weight down to 125 pounds and will go at my own pace, I'm in no rush to lose a lot of weight but only to gain that weight back on! All that effort, for what? I'm doing this for me. Main areas I'd love to focus on are abs (oh my gosh, have you seen Janet Jackson's abs when she did the All for You tour, and Angela Bassett's arms, here's an article from Entertainment Weekly, An ode to Angela Bassett's arms - and the power they possess. As most of you may be unaware, respectfully speaking, I'm a fan of Janet Jackson (and would love. love, love to see Janet Jackson on her next tour) whether or not she's been blacklisted from whatever an event may be since that whole Super Bowl XXXVIII halftime show featuring Justin Timberlake. I'm sorry, I've lost all respect for Justin Timberlake more so now than nine years ago. Justin Timberlake [as I feel] should be the one to be blacklisted from music and movies, not Janet Jackson. Not the case, I need to focus on myself, health wise for the most part.

-Information-

"There is a moment when you get older when your metabolism slows down and you don't feel like working out anymore, so you don't want to keep yourself fit anymore, but that's your decision. Why should you be judged for it?" Janet Jackson

If you wish to learn more about yoga and here are five pieces of information you can view at your own leisure. Three of them are YouTube videos in regard to yoga with an article of yoga and the other are articles of yoga. I wish you the best of luck on your fitness journey and be sure to set realistic fitness goals for yourself. Go at your own pace and that's the best way to go about. For those who are on the fence in regards on whether to begin your yoga experience and here are some videos I've watched for you to view or read at your own leisure! From the times I've done yoga [at home], it's very relaxing and I enjoy doing yoga. Here is: What Happens to Your Brain and Body When You Do Yoga Regularly. I want to also include these videos and articles for you to check out at your own time. Yoga and its connection to mental health | Nikolai Blinow | TedxSalveReginaUThe Health Benefits of Yoga - How Yoga Helps You Stay Healthy | Sadhguru8 Lesser-Known Benefits of Yoga; 20 Wall Pilates Benefits: You'll Wish You Knew About These Sooner! and Wall Pilates is the new low-impact exercise everyone's trying - but is it worth your time? At the end of the day, your own research is entirely up to you and I'm not going to force anyone to do yoga. Yet, it is very relaxing at the end of the day, and I have my own reasons why I'd want to do more yoga in the evening before bed! It's good to have Ignite by SPRI Resistance Cord and Tone It Up Exercise Sliders N' Sculpt Discs for Toning, Set of 2, Teal. Here are two additional workouts to go with the Resistance band and sliders discs: 12 min RESISTANCE BAND ARM WORKOUT | Upper Body | All Standing and CORE STRENGTH AND BALANCE SLIDER SCULPT WORKOUT. There are additional videos to go with these items on YouTube to view at your own leisure!

-Videos I've Tried Out in 2023-

"Number one, like yourself. Number two, you have to eat healthy. And number three, you've got to squeeze your buns. That's my formula." ~ Richard Simmons

Last but not least! Here are some of these YouTube channels I follow during my free time while my mother is out running her errands: fitbymikgetfitbyivanaMADFitMary Braun; and Mr. London. I do what I can while I have the apartment to myself while my mom is running her errands and it's not much time, so I squeeze what I can into a half hour to forty-five minutes, often an hour if I'm fortunate enough without taking breaks!

  1. 5 min WARM UP ROUTINE Before Your Workout | Low Impact | Wrist Friendly
  2. 25 min STANDING DUMBBELL WORKOUT | Full Body | Lower and Upper Body Routine | No Repeats
  3. 5 min COOL DOWN STRETCH ROUTINE | After Workout | Muscle Recovery
  4. 10 min TRICEPS WORKOUT with Dumbbells | No Pushups
  5. 10 min STANDING ARM WORKOUT | With Dumbbells | Biceps, Triceps and Shoulders | Zero Pushups
  6. 12 min STANDING ARM WORKOUT | With Dumbbells | No Pushups 
  7. 15 min STANDING ARM WORKOUT | With Dumbbells | Upper Body
  8. 15 min STANDING ARMS AND ABS WORKOUT | With Dumbbells | Upper Body | No Repeats
  9. 20 min STANDING ARM WORKOUT | With Dumbbells | No Pushups
  10. STANDING TONED ARMS & BACK In Just 10 Mins/Days ~ Lose Back + Arm Fat Faster (Weights vs. No Weights) 
  11. 10 Min ABS + SMALL WAIST | All Standing - No Jumping, No Repeat, Warm Up + Cool Down, At Home
  12. 10 Minute Flat Abs Workout for Insane Results!
  13. 10 min BRA BULGE & BACK FAT WORKOUT | Chest, Back & Arms
  14. 5 min GROW YOUR BOOTY WORKOUT // No Squats No Equipment
  15. 10 MIN LEG/BOOTY/THIGH WORKOUT (No Equipment Killer Legs)
  16. 30 MIN PILATES FOR WEIGHT LOSS | best calories burn,
  17. 20 MIN ABS & BOOTY - on the floor, no squats/lunges, you will feel it in your abs if done properly!
Back Fat Blaster!!! // Upper Body Workout with Weights
BACK & BRA BULGE 5 Min. Workout | Lose Back Fat in 2 WEEKS!! (No Equipment / Upper Body Burn).
Best of luck to those achieving your own personal fitness goals! 😘
-Lower Body Workout-
"The clock is ticking. Are you becoming the person you want to be?" ~ Greg Plitt
This is for those who want to focus on lower body as well if you wish to check some of these videos out to further your fitness goals.
-Upper Body Workout-
"Setting goals is the first step into turning the invisible into the visible." ~ Tony Robbins
More for your goals! Whatever your personal goals are, continue your hard work and you will see results. Keep in mind, weight loss will not happen overnight but with time and be patient because you will see results. Even if you may not see your desired results right away, I'm sure others will take notice of your weight loss. I'm proud of you for making it this far with your fitness goals and keep pushing forward. Make realistic goals for yourselves.
 -Full Body Workout-
"Don't wait until you've reached your goal to be proud of yourself. Be proud of every step you take toward reaching the goal." ~ Unknown
I'm going to end it here before I end up adding more videos for you to do. If you're looking for a workout challenge, check out fitbymlk since she has some decent workout challenges and feel free to check them out at your own leisure! Keep at it and challenge yourselves because it will pay off in the end, keep pushing yourself. Be mindful on your diet as well.

Best of luck on your fitness journey and never lose sight of why you began this journey!
 
 Blessed be,
Jennifer

Saturday, June 17, 2023

Fulfiling Family Expectations

"A boy needs a father to show him how to be in the world. He needs to be given swagger, taught how to read a map so that he can recognize the roads that lead to life and the paths that lead to death, how to know what love requires, and where to find steel in the heart when life makes demands on us that are greater than we think we can endure." ~ Ian Morgan Cron
Good morning; afternoon; and evening friends and fans! Namasté. 🧘🏾‍♀️ I've decided to completely redo this blog so people aren't left with a negative impression of a "hate" filled blog degrading deadbeats, sperm donors if you will, no good, a bag full of excuse making selfish little boys, and don't start your nonsense when you haven't done anything for the mother of your children, she's basically sacrificing her health, her social life, her love life, even her own happiness, and her career on hold just to raise these children you have zero interest of being around as a father and holding yourself accountable for helping bring a child into this world when the child wasn't asked to be born! For the real men who are there for their children from day one, never once made any sad but sorry excuse after excuse for not stepping up to the plate, never making any sacrifices and I will say is that I am very much proud of the real men who were always there for their children. It is very attractive when I see men interact by being present and downright being there for their children, whether if your children are yours biologically, spiritually or legally, that's attractive when men are genuinely hands on as a father. What truly gets me upset [in a disappointing kind of way] is that the child will make the decision whether if they want a father - child relationship and it's wonderful in a happy way to see men step up to the plate, whether if they want to be actively involved with their own children. As far as those who skip town upon hearing the news that they'd be celebrating Father's Day and it's not right that some or rather a majority of the male population would rather have their cake and eat it. For those who have zero interest in fatherhood for whatever reason or whatever sorry excuse you currently have, please do yourselves and the rest of us women a solid favor, please get a fucking vasectomy or use some form of birth control. No excuses because future generations need positive family morals of what a family should be and what a real man should be. Hey, the truth fucking hurts!

For the single dads out there doing what needs to be done, I know it's not easy but here you are doing and giving your best on the daily! Always remember, your health comes first because if you don't take care of yourselves now, how can you take care of your family? Yes, it's so easy to "forget" to take care of yourself with everything going on in the world. More often than not, if you feel the need to take time out for yourself so you can maintain your sanity, mental, emotional, physical health, psychological well-being. Continue your hobbies and even if you decide to take a day or two for yourself so you can keep your feet on the ground while maintaining good health. Even if you end up doing yoga to decompress your mind, body, soul, and overall health so you can somehow remain levelheaded. Stay hydrated, treat yourself every once in a while to a gel manicure and pedicure or treat yourself out to dinner, and as long as it's something nice but I don't mean make it into a weekly habit of treating yourself out to dinner or unless if it's not in your budget. As long as whatever you do is therapeutic and leaves you in a peaceful, mellow zen. Meditate when you have free time to center yourself when need be. Most of all, I am proud of you for being present, active, and hands on with your children while other absent fathers are nowhere to be found. Keep up the amazing work! Remember to breathe and prioritize your health so you can be there for your children!

"There's really no point in having children if you're not going to be home enough to father them." ~ Anthony Edwards

As for as the deadbeat fathers who have completely avoided fatherhood, I want to express my disappointment in you and most of you know who you are! As I have previously stated, please do yourselves and the rest of us women a solid favor, get a vasectomy if you have zero intentions of being a father. Please don't be that one selfish asshole who fucked it up for the next guy and keep real with your partner before you become intimate with your partner. Furthermore, be honest with yourself because honestly and communication is key, and I am at that point that I'm frustrated, disappointed and I am slowly losing faith in men. Nonetheless, I know there a small handful of good men out there and they're hard to find. Don't lie saying that you're a good guy when you haven't even been there for your own children because it's bullshit and I'm sure the mother of your children is giving you the freedom and opportunity to be a father but you're selfishly thinking about yourself with many excuses that you're pulling from your asses. Don't be surprised if your children want absolutely nothing to do with you when they're old enough to decide for themselves.

When I was watching this, it made me tear up because I know what this experience is like but watch this video at your convenience: Fresh Prince of Bel-Air - Will's Father leaves, and I can relate to this because my father was never round during my youth. To me, I felt like the only time he's made his existence known was when he got in contact with me and it's like any other time I didn't exist to him whatsoever. Of course, people will make excuses for him in his place by saying "He probably didn't know how to be a father" and yeah, he never had a father figure in his life either. I honestly don't know what my worth truly is and it's something I need to dig deep for to see what my worth is. I used to send my biological father birthday cards (he was a Libra) but when my birthday would come around, I'd come home from school and ask my mom if he had sent me a birthday card, as per usual, her response was no. After a while, I'd stopped sending him birthday cards because this experience hurt way too much. Interesting thing is that he remembered me at Christmas! Why am I not surprised? He allegedly claimed he "has a bag full of birthday cards" that he hadn't sent out for my birthday because I remember the one excuse he had given me was that he'd go to the store, buy a card in advance but never had the opportunity to send it to me and I'll never know if he genuinely bought birthday cards because I enjoy getting cards from people because I feel like you've made the effort of going to the store and picked out a card since you had me in mind. Never once had he said he was proud of me before his passing from his brain aneurysm in 2014. For any woman who is seeking to get child support from your baby daddy and a current New York City resident, there's a place called Legal Hand where they help from anything from housing, consumer debt, child support, etc. and it would be best to have a support system if you're looking to have someone to serve your baby daddy papers for Family Court. Feel free to check out Serving Process at your own convenience and it'll run you $52 for a sheriff to serve baby daddy the necessary paperwork. I'm not speaking negatively of my birth father; however, I'm stating how I feel, and I don't expect anyone to understand. To each their own.

"The father who does not teach his son his duties is equally guilty with the son who neglects them." ~ Confucius

If you're a guy who is not looking to settle down no time soon but want to continue to be sexually active and promiscuous without using protection or having the knowledge of what the word no actually means! No means no and I am tired of men being ignorant in not knowing what the word no means (I am sure you may have a dictionary somewhere in your own home, just saying 🤷🏾‍♀️). I've been sexually abused by my stepfather at the age of 9 and I was raped at age 26 and got pregnant from that rape. I regret being with my baby daddy and I regret not having health insurance or being on birth control at the time. Had I been on birth control, I would not be where I am at right now and I blame myself for it! What messed me up was having an irregular menstrual cycle at the time. I remember December of 2008; I had told my baby daddy that I hadn't had my period since October of 2008 and his response was that I was "being paranoid and needed to relax" and that I was going to have my period in January [2009]. Of course, I had my period in January but when February and March came and went, nada and it wasn't until Mother's Day of 2009 that I had gotten a pregnancy test, and the test came back positive. It was too late to go for an abortion at the time and I was going to put my son up for adoption because I hadn't lived my life yet and also for the fact I wasn't ready mentally, emotionally, and financially. Each time I had told my baby daddy of an upcoming appointment, his response was that he wasn't going to make it in time or that he didn't have bus fare because keep in mind that this dude lives in Brooklyn (in the projects). He'd always make excuses for not being there and I remember I'd wake up in the middle of the night crying because I was hurt, I hated him, and I hated myself as well. I eventually stopped telling him when each of my upcoming appointments was because if he truly wanted to go to these appointments with me at the time, surely, he would've put in the effort and that same effort of going out of his way of raping me, that same effort could've gone to each appointment with me!!! His excuse was for not being around was because I was going to put my son up for adoption and that was his excuse at the time! If you know that you're not at all interested in fatherhood, please do yourselves a favor (as well as any woman who have no interest in motherhood since there's no return policy on children), wear a condom or get a vasectomy if you have zero interest of being a father because the only person you're hurting is the child because the child was never asked to be born and the child will grow up with many questions on why you're not there along with questioning their self-worth. But it's fucked up that you have money for things like Netflix or Disney+ or lavish extravagant vacations or buying jewelry or whatever your heart desires. Let's not get started with not being actively involved or coming around when you feel it's only convenient and thinking it's fucking okay to post "all the cool" shit you do with the kids when you have them on weekends on Facebook thinking you "deserve father of the year" award, no, no, fuck no (let's not get it twisted 👏🏾 👏🏾 👏🏾), only award you receive is Sperm Donor Award. Trust me, men like you deserve that award and let's not make excuses because that's the only talent you have. How hard is it to pick up the phone and see how your children are doing or if they need anything or coming by so you'd get a break? If you have time to take a bathroom break than you must have time to call your baby mamma and help her out for once in your lives! 😠 If you're not interested in being a father than express yourselves but don't go around wasting your baby mamma's time and energy chasing you around so you'd spend time with your children.

"A man who doesn't spend time with his family can never be a real man." ~ Mario Puzo, The Godfather

Even though you've moved on. It was so easy for you to start over with someone new. I won't have that chance for a while. See single mothers who have their children 24/7 don't have the chance to go out and meet new people. Single mothers who work hard to support their children and give them everything they can in life, don't have time to go on dates. Single mothers aren't a hot commodity these days. So while you lay in bed with another woman, holding her close. I lay in bed with our son and read him stories. I bathe him every night, put on his pajamas, brush his teeth, and talk about our day. When he asks about you, I tell him you love him. Even though your actions say different. Even though, you can only manage to spend a mere day or two a month with him. I could put up with you making me feel like I didn't matter to you. But the day I knew that you would make him feel that way too, is the day I had to let you go. That was the day I knew you'd never change. You'd never be the selfless, loving father I thought you could be so I had to let you go because I knew you weren't good for me, and we could never be a family.


One day I'll get the chance to move on. I know Yahuah has a plan for my life, and I trust Him. One day, I'll get married and have a real family with a man who recognizes my strength and loves me in a way you never could. It'll take time to let go of all the hurt and pain.


I have asked for nothing from you.


I have never asked for money, I have never asked for food, I have never asked for clothing.


I cannot speak for absent mothers as I have no experience in this, I'm sure there are many out there.


It must be pretty wonderful for you to have the choice of whether to step up and be a dad on any given day. Personally, I don't get that same luxury.


What I do have the luxury of is watching a beautiful little boy grow smarter, bigger and stronger every single day. I get to hear his happy babbling in the morning, laugh as he laughs, and watch him fall into blissful sleep.


At first, I felt bitter that my life had changed so irretrievably while you still get to go out and party all the time. Now I see that my life has changed for the better while yours just reverted back to teenage years.


I have to be a mother 100% of the time, whether I'm sick, exhausted or whatever else. I don't get to say, "Sorry, not today." (Not that I'd ever want to.)


Raising our son alone makes me feel like a superhero. Like I'm invincible, and I could take on the whole world and still succeed. I'm doing something I previously thought would be impossible. I'm happily owning my single mom 'situation', and it's amazing.


While I don't have anyone to share the highs and lows of parenting with day in day out, I also don't have to share cuddles with my little boy. Does that sound selfish? Probably, but I'm so glad I have him all to myself.


It's terrifying and daunting that this is all on me, that I have the sole day to day responsibility of bringing up a child. It's just as well I have the love of not just two but two million parents to show him. I'll make sure he always knows that.


Not having that solidarity of a big, unshakeable rock beside me is definitely a struggle some days. But you were never going to be that rock anyway. I am my own rock.


You missed out on a great kid. You will miss out on birthdays, graduations, first dates, and watching our kid turn into the amazing adult they are destined to become, with or without you.


I won't teach him to hate you, but I'll let him make his own assumptions about you. Chances are, he won't feel so fondly about you once he realise how truly disgusting your actions have been.


I hope you don't consider yourself a real man, because real men don't walk out on their children. You walked out on the most important responsibility of your life, without any regrets.


I don't see it as anything I did wrong. You were simply a coward who didn't have the courage to stick out the tough times. Yes, things were hard in the beginning, but things are much better now, and I only feel sorry for you because you're missing out.


Our child will grow up learning how to be a great parent, all because you taught them everything they shouldn't do. You set a perfect example for all the things he will never grow up to be.


I've stopped agonizing over you, because you don't deserve these tears. Crying over you is like letting you win, and I've decided that you will no longer have control over my life.


I hope for your future family's sake, you don't do the same thing to them that you did to us. While you don't deserve the happiness that a family can bring you, no one else deserves the pain you've left us with.


If I could have one wish for my son, it would be to have a good father. A father who shows up and a father who puts his child before his addictions, before his friends, before his own selfish needs.

"Your children need your presence more than your presents." ~ Jesse Jackson

"Deadbeat Dads are the worst kind of fathers, and they need to be brought to justice." ~ Chandan Negi

"Many people think of child support when they think of a deadbeat dad; however, these dads also may classify as deadbeat if they refuse to care adequately for their children." ~ Anonymous


"They're given really bad choices. It's less deadbeat dads and more unemployed fathers, and some fathers decide to sedate and give up." ~ Cheri Honkala

"When someone chooses to be a deadbeat dad, they are choosing to abandon their responsibilities." ~ Chandan Negi

"Any fool can be a Father, but it takes a real man to be a Daddy!" ~ Philip Whitmore

Blessed be,

Jennifer
 

Wednesday, May 31, 2023

In the Name of Yahuah!

Good morning; afternoon; and evening friends and fans! Namaste. This is my sixth spiritual blog and I hope it'll be my final blog on spirituality. Other five were written about brujeria and this one is something different. I feel that I had to find the proper words so I wouldn't mess up my words and went to revisit a blog titled: What Everyone Ought To Know About Spiritual Experience and carried over six videos over to this blog. As of now, I have found fifteen videos and haven't found a whole lot of reading material for those who are interested in wanting to find out if there are any reading material in regards of Yahuah. I'm not going to go crazy and there are videos I have not added to this blog. For the time being I'll begin with these selected videos I've chosen and if there's any videos you're curious about, feel free to check them out at your own leisure without any distraction. Keep in mind, these YouTube channels aren't going to last forever and meaning, any video I've posted in the past, several of them had been taken down because of the algorithm keeps taking down videos or channels. Take these three channels for example but you're now able to find them on BitChute and/or Rumble: JonExArmy; Richie from Boston; and Truth Unvield777. I'll begin with the history of the seven videos and again, I want to make sure I got my words sounding the way I want them to sound. Yes, I realize I'm being very meticulous, specifically with this blog and who knows if there will be a follow-up to this one, something I haven't personally decided yet. However, if I do end up witting a follow-up, it'll most likely be a final spiritual blog to end this serious of spiritual and who knows if there will be a follow-up and this series of spirituality. All in all, for this paragraph, I know I'm doing a horrible job with discussing the real name of the Father and a lot of the things we've ever been taught, whether if you're regularly attended church but for some reason, something changed over the years, and I began being turned off because I've had people encouraging me to attend Bible study, things of that nature. When it comes down to things like that, I've also felt like there something faith down my throat which turned me off. I've also felt like there was something a bit unnatural when it came down to religion. Before I go onto the rest of this blog, there are three videos for you to watch at your own leisure. There's POWER in the Name of Yahuah/Yahusha!! Part 1There's POWER In the Name of Yahuah/Yahusha!! Part 2; 100% UNDENIABLE PROOF Of Our Creator YAH! and IDENTITY OF YAHUSHA WILL BLOW YOUR MIND. Things Lucifer doesn't want you to know, and I hope you continue reading this before clicking off this blog.


I've had seven videos on one of my blogs, What Everyone Ought To Know About Spiritual Experience and YouTube's algorithm had removed that particular person or persons YouTube account, the video that I had on there was titled: A History of the True Hebrews (Documentary Re-uploaded). I hadn't heard of Yahuah until the summer of 2018 and have been a follower ever since! There are things I am still learning about Yahuah and what He has to offer. Yes sir, Yahuah have a lot to offer us if we repent now before the end of times approaches and as I'm at Alley Pond Park writing this since it's a lovely day to be outdoors, not too much humidity but comfortable. I love weather like this and I'm not a fan of being indoors all day (I don't know how most people can stay indoors unless necessary). Without further ado, this first video of what the bible says, What is the real name of the Creator?... YAHUAH; here is a reaction video, The True Name of the Creator; and check out YAHUAH'S BIBLICAL HEBREWS REVELED: Contrary to the Whitewash! If you think about it, when you go out into the community, you'll never witness white people create other races but you'll see black people with a pigmentation [called Vitiligo] of creating albino children and take note of it for when you go out. There is absolutely no way scientifically/medically possible that whites, Asians or Spanish people can genetically give birth to someone of African American descent, dude, just think about it for a moment and I'm waiting! ⏲

  1. BELIEVE IN YAHUSHA, MY SALVATION | The Word of YaHUaH Throughout Scriptures | Set-Apart Meditation;
  2. Who Are the Black Israelites?
  3. (The True Hebrew Israelites) Scattered Among the Nations: Part 1
  4. (The True Hebrew Israelites) Scattered Among the Nations: Part 2
  5. (The True Hebrew Israelites) Scattered Among the Nations: Part 3
  6. YAHUAH REMOVED HIS NAME

In this paragraph, I hope you've noticed what I've done all throughout this blog and please keep in mind that any or all of these videos won't remain on YouTube forever because of YouTube's algorithm keeps removing certain videos since they won't want the truth out there. However, on the other hand I understand if there's some type of conspiracy going on or misinformation and I'm that kind of person who believes in hearing both sides of the argument. I don't believe in taking sides at all cost but will draw up my own conclusion. Nonetheless, I've never been a huge fan of taking sides and never cared for taking either side because I'd rather remain neutral. Back to Yahuah, He is real and since I believe Yahuah is a black dude with cotton hair as I've drawn up my own conclusions for as I am my own person. In regards of previous blogs I have several times have made mention of 'Powers of the Psalms' by Anna Riva, I've never given it much thought in regards of certain things such as revenge and etc. I hope everyone found this blog educational and with great amount of information. Here are several videos for you to watch at your own leisure and something to look out for when the time comes. Witchcraft Breaker Deliverance Prayers | Pray in the Name of Yahuah - YahushaThe Devils FINAL Plan For The Last Days Is Unfolding Before Our EyesSatan's Trap for Christians? The Shocking Truth About Powers of the Psalms by Anna RivaSt. Faustina Kowalska - Signs Be Revealed on The Sky Right Before the Coming of Justice! and 3 Days of Darkness - Do Not Go Out These Days! You can take this entire blog with a grain of salt or believe deeply in the power of Yahuah. I'm not forcing this blog down your throat whatsoever and I'm doing what I can to educate anyone and everyone who falls upon this blog!

I want people to know that I'm not in any way trying to shove Yahuah down people's throats and I'm doing my best to spread the word, as well as educate people who stumbled upon this blog out of curiosity or whatever reason that brings them to this particular blog or any spiritual blog I've written. I've also included these two copies of books that was brought to my attention and you're able to find these two books on Amazon! You can order: BYNV: Volume One; and BYNV: Volume 2. I still yet have to order these books, when it's in my budget, I'll be sure to order these books on Amazon.

Blessed be,
Jennifer